These projects are helping to keep me focused on something, while I regret that I can't do much to help my sister right now. It sucks. Being so far away. I can't wait to get there and DO SOMETHING! It reminds me (once again) of one of my favorite poems.
On His Blindness
On His Blindness
WHEN I consider how my light is spent
E're half my days, in this dark world and wide,
And that one Talent which is death to hide,
Lodg'd with me useless, though my Soul more bent
To serve therewith my Maker, and present
My true account, lest he returning chide,
Doth God exact day-labour, light deny'd,
I fondly ask; But patience to prevent
That murmur, soon replies, God doth not need
Either man's work or his own gifts, who best
Bear his milde yoak, they serve him best, his State
Is Kingly. Thousands at his bidding speed
And post o're Land and Ocean without rest:
They also serve who only stand and waite.
(Milton is writing about the fact that he lost his sight before he had written anything that he would consider a masterpiece. He'd felt very strongly about the idea that God was calling him to write Paradise Lost, and when he became blind, he truly had no idea how he was going to accomplish his goal. So, the poem is about the period of time between losing his sight and being able to finish his greatest work.)
Oh, I love this poem. It speaks so beautifully of how God can use us, even when we feel useless. God doesn't need to use us--He can accomplish whatever he wants without us. But he allows us to be a part of the greater picture, the beauty of his ministry.
In heaven, the angels of the highest position are the angels that do nothing but "stand and wait" at the throne of the Almighty. Revelation 4:8 says, "Day and night without ceasing they sing, 'Holy, holy, holy, the Lord God the Almighty, who was and is and is to come.'" It's remarkable to me that this is the entire task that God asks of these angels. Maybe they could be doing something more useful somewhere, no? But the point is, they are glorifying Him. This is where God wants them, and what an incredible duty!
Getting to my point, I'm having a hard time with being so helpless when it comes to Stephanie and her family. But God has me right where I should be, and what I should be doing is praying for her and all the rest of them and praising God for what He's done! By making use of my time this way, I'm trusting Him fully to have His will. After all, He's completely in control, isn't He?
Please follow Stephanie's progress with me here. We would all appreciate your prayers and warm thoughts. Thanks for reading.